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12.24.2008

A Christmas Thought (Written Before UPS Turned On Me)

I'm waiting around for a UPS package to be delivered (I had it sent to my office -- but our office was officially closed so it was just me, an open door, and time) and am a bit frustrated. But I was determined to not let a lost afternoon ruin Christmas Eve. And although I normally spend this day doing things like roaming around a mall (not to shop -- but to watch others and try to soak in a Christmas season that I intentionally deprive myself of), it wasn't a bad experience. I finally turned off talk radio and browsed around youtube for Christmas videos that are oddly important to me. "Merry Christmas, Darling" by The Carpenters? I'm kidding, right? Nope. That song was buried on a Christmas 8 track tape that my dad had constantly running at his department store during December years and years ago in Bridgeport. I distinctly remember in high school going down to that place every year late at night and wrapping presents. I'd turn the soundtrack on, turn it up, and have the whole place to myself. It was almost as if some type of magical solitude had transformed the place after hours of being crammed with people during the day. Band Aid's "Do They Know It's Christmas"? Am I serious? You bet. I remember listening to it as I ran around the old dirt track at the old Bridgeport Middle School when I was home from college one year. I was overcome, after being flooded with memories of that school and that field, with the realization that some times in your life are simply gone forever. Sappy, but true. This is leading somewhere. I promise. Let me issue a simple Christmas shout out to you whether you visit this silly blog once a month or a few times a day. I'm not sure how it started or how it has evolved into whatever mess it is now, but I appreciate the visits and the comments --- whether those comments be the incredibly nice ones or those that are so bitingly critical of me that they make me stop and think about whether maybe, just maybe, you might be right. And one final thing, I'm amazed at how much those bloggers listed on the left (and, of course, others) put themselves "out there" -- revealing their life's pains and blessings to an audience of both friends and strangers. I really don't do that. A good friend told me that I was the ultimate psychiatric experiment for running Liberally Lean while at the same time being the most secretive, reserved, and emotionally guarded individual that he knew. I don't have an explanation for that. But, on this Christmas Eve, I'll let you know a little. By choice, I've awakened every Christmas morning of my adult life -- with the exception of one -- with no children in the home. About four years ago I decided that I'd jog outside at the break of dawn on Christmas morn believing it would be an emotional and happy experience --- the sensation of running by home after home and contemplating whether joyous present-opening-chaos was breaking out behind those closed doors and brick walls. It would be fun. But it wasn't like that at all. It was the outside that turned out to be overwhelming. Quiet and cold . . . and empty. I haven't done it since. There's no real moral to the story other than to remind you to enjoy the inside. And although without kids, I've got a niece and nephew that I see every year on Christmas Day. It seems like yesterday they were toddlers and now both of them are in college. "Time flies" is a cliche. But it's a cliche because it's so true. Oh, and one other secret? Every year when I drive home for Christmas in the late morning, to the same house I grew up in, I listen to the song below. It's the only time during the year that I will do that. It's my personal tradition. I have no idea who that family is in the video or what country they are from but, I suppose, the message is universal. Merry Christmas.

26 comments:

Anonymous said...

It must be real personal, cause I ain't seein' shiate, or else that family is singin' in a blizzard.

Anonymous said...

Merry Christmas!! I so enjoy your take on life not only in Wise County, but in all your travels. I am sitting here listening to "your" Christmas morning song, and I am so thankful for all that I have and where my life is at. I have two of the greastest kids and I can't wait until the morning to see both of their faces as they open presents, even with them being 22 and 18 it takes me back to when they were small, with smiling anticipation of each gift. I hope your day with family is blessed.

Anonymous said...

Merry Christmas to you, Barry. Thanks for sharing with us.

Anonymous said...

Merry Christmas Barry and God Bless You


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Anonymous said...

Merry Christmas to you! Maybe one day I will get to meet the master behind this blog. I totally agree with your friend's observations, even though I only know you from this site. Enjoy the holiday time with your family.

mzchief said...

To Barry...
You share more with us than you know. Your humanity, honesty and decency is there for all, who care to look, to see.

Merry Christmas and may you always continue to seek and learn to enjoy the blessings of this holiday season.

Anonymous said...

Barry,

Thanks for sharing some Christmas moments with some of us who also have no spouse or kids. It is nice to know that we are not the only ones that feel alone at this time of year.

My husband passed away two years ago after a very short illness. Barry, you had taken care of him in two legal issues. I am forever grateful for the way you treated him.

I could dwell on my sad situation and pity myself, but no, my niece just had a little baby girl today. She is beautiful and our little Christmas Eve baby.

Life is good. Just let the bad things go. We go through so many changes in our lives. Sometimes they are losses of loved ones and at that point I would have to say that things will never be the same, but there will come a time when it will be O.K.

Anonymous said...

Your niece and nephew have grown up to be beautiful, upstanding young adults. May your holiday with them and the rest of your wonderful family be blessed.

LandShark 5150 said...

Merry Christmas big Bar -- now put your little footzy p.js on, set the milk and cookies out, don't stay up to late or Santa wont stop at your house. Best wishes to you and yours.

onmyway311 said...

Merry Christmas, Barry. I enjoy your blog on a daily basis and look forward to what you have to say no matter how random. Enjoy your time with family tomorrow and in the days to come!
:-)

Anonymous said...

Find a new song, pleeeeeeeeease

Anonymous said...

Thanks for this post! Merry Christmas Barry!!

Jarhead said...

Merry Christmas BG. Best to you in the New Year.

Kevin

Anonymous said...

Merry Christmas Barry!.....and if the whole world had grown up in a family like yours we would truly know the meaning of Peace on Earth, Good will to Men.

Anonymous said...

I just want to say I enjoy reading the Barron BuBear Boobcentric Blog each day.

Anonymous said...

A Very Good Morning to all of you! Its Christmas Day Santa has arrived in Dublin in full swing and last I saw the the telly he is on his way to the United States...then into Canada, Nova and then home for a good long rest until next year. As par usual I waited up for him. His sleigh was loaded to the brim. That must mean everyone was either very good this year OR he has a good heart and decided with what has been going on this year everyone was getting a gift. Its amazing isn't it.....turmoil all around us....and yet this one day.....quiet and peace and you can actually feel it in the air. I went to put on the lights outside the house and there was a wonderful feeling of peace everywhere. Gentle quiet as if the world has taken one day off to just be. I want to wish every family a peaceful gentle day....Enjoy your loved ones around you watch the joy on the wee little faces of children and drink in the feeling of this glorious day. "Today a child has been born....he will take away all the unhappiness and termoil of man's life and replace it with joy." If today you feel sad or lonely remember these words and don't be afraid to stand up for them as they are a gift to all of us. A very Merry Christmas to all my dear Aunts and Uncles and my cousins who I hold deep within my heart. God bless you and your families. I wish you Peace Joy and love for this holiday and always.

Anonymous said...

Merry Christmas Baylor Barry U da MAN !!!!!!!!!!

Mr. Mike Honcho said...

Merry Honcho Christmas to all of you folks out there.

My wish that all will turn off this box of wonder that I love/hate and go talk to real people this Christmas... not the avatars and catchy screen names that are the "fakes" in our world.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year...

Anonymous said...

Glory to God In the highest,and on earth peace, goodwill toward men! God made peace with man 2000 years ago!! There is peace on earth so rejoice!!' Most of the time I don't agree with your views Barry. But that's ok that is what makes this Country great! I laugh at a lot of your post's disagree with most, but then I cry at some enjoy your family and friends. This thought came to me as I was reading your blog yesterday! What can Brown do for you! Ha

Anonymous said...

Bah humbug

Anonymous said...

I had more birthday comments than the niece and won an ncaa championship before the nephew haha..but nonetheless...they're cool

betty boop said...

Merry Christmas to one of my favorite people in the world...I feel blessed to know you.

Midway Records said...

Hope you had a Merry Christmas Barry! Enjoy your blog daily & sometimes the people who know you realize there are a few secrets you let out!

Anonymous said...

did you ever get your package from ups?? and what was their reason for thinking you were on holiday?

Brandon Evans said...

Merry Christmas Barry from the frozen land of Connecticut.

But you seriously like the song "Do they know it's christmas?" That song bugs me to know end. Why would they not know it's Christmas? For example, Christians were practicing in Ethiopia centuries before it was ever present in Northern Europe.

Anonymous said...

Merry Christmas, Barry, albeit a couple of days after. I'm a regular reader who is out of town for the holidays which should tell you how much I enjoy your blog since I had to borrow a computer so I could catch up with what you've written since I left Ft. Worth.

I used to have a family but last year my family as I knew it changed forever with the dissolution of my marriage, so I sort of know where you're coming from. The holidays have a way of pointing out the loneliness we are able to ignore during the rest of the year. Take care.